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A recent discussion in our Shabbat morning minyan opened with the
question: Why does the Torah begin with the letter bet, the second
letter of the Hebrew alphabet? Wouldn't it have been more fitting
for the Torah &endash; which begins in the beginning, with the
creation of the world &endash; to start with the very first letter of
the alphabet, the aleph?
This is an old and somewhat fanciful rabbinic question. But one
thought-provoking answer that I had never considered before emerged
in our discussion. Perhaps, suggested one member of the minyan, the
bet is a hint of things to come in the book of Genesis. Perhaps the
very question itself &endash; why the bet rather than the aleph, why
the second letter rather than the first &endash; is a way of calling
our attention to the struggle that will dominate the entire book of
Genesis, the struggle between the first-born and second-born child
(Abel and Cain, Isaac and Ishmael, Jacob and Esau, and so on
throughout the narrative). The book of Genesis, after all, can be
seen as a sustained reflection on sibling rivalry, a deeply troubling
account of a family that we understand to be our own, in which the
animosity among brothers is dangerous, the jealousy life-threatening
and sometimes fatal.
Jealousy appears to be built into human experience from the very
beginning. The early chapters of Genesis teach us that jealousy is
most powerful and potentially lethal when it is most intimate,
closest to home. Cain, the first murderer, is motivated not by a
cold hatred of the "other," but by a burning jealousy of his own
brother. Yet, who is to blame for Cain's furious depression when
Abel's sacrifice is preferred over his own? Clearly, Cain is and
must be held responsible for his action. "Where is Abel your
brother?" demands God, emphasizing Cain's personal accountability.
But the text also leaves us wondering: If God is the parent in this
scenario, couldn't He have found a way to honor and accept the
offerings of both brothers? Why did one have to be favored over the
other?
Isn't the parent responsible for creating an environment in which
affection and approval are in abundance, one in which love is not a
scarce commodity? I think about this question now as daughter,
sister, and mother awaiting the birth of my second child, and realize
that somewhere along the line, my own answer has shifted from an
emphatic "Yes!" to a more cautious, "Yes, but . . ."
Yes, I believe that parents can and should create an environment
in which children do not feel that they have to compete for a limited
pool of love and approval. If anything, I see more and more how
profoundly every child needs to feel loved, appreciated, and known by
his or her parents. How else do we learn to become lovers,
appreciators, knowers of others? What's more, the view of love as a
finite reservoir, in danger of being depleted if distributed too
generously, seems not only tragic, but false to me. Our capacity to
love can surely dry up, but not from overuse.
So, why do I say, "Yes, but . . ."? Because, at the same time, I
do not think it is possible for parents to protect their children
completely from feelings of jealousy and competition. It is a
mistake&endash;a dangerous one&endash;to think that we can eliminate
jealousy from the repertoire of human emotions.
Cain's name, after all, is related to the Hebrew root k-n-h,
meaning "to acquire, to own." One way to understand the story is as
a reminder that jealousy has its origins in a sense of connection and
ownership. Jealousy is part of any close relationship. It is tied
to the capacity for betrayal and hurt that is encountered any time we
love, any time we see ourselves as having a special claim on another
person. The very relationships that make us vulnerable to each other
also make us responsible for each other.
When God asks Cain, "Where is Abel your brother?" Cain's reply,
"Am I my brother's keeper?" is not only an evasion of moral
responsibility. It is, paradoxically, a denial of any feeling of
connection to his brother. Perhaps this is why Cain's punishment is
banishment: "You shall become a ceaseless wanderer on earth." In
other words, God says to Cain, "From now on, you shall have a claim
on no one, and no one shall have a claim on you. You, whose name
means ownership, have shown that you cannot be trusted with the
responsibilities of ownership. You will no longer experience
jealousy, for you will no longer know human intimacy and connection."
We are told much later in the Torah that God is a "jealous" God
&endash; el kana. Even God cannot experience connection without
vulnerability, ownership without jealousy, intimacy without the risk
of betrayal. Perhaps in revealing this capacity for vulnerability
&endash; this capacity to be hurt by us &endash; God teaches a lesson
that all parents must teach their children: to live in relationship
is to understand that we are never absolutely powerful or absolutely
powerless. We each have the capacity both to hurt and to be hurt.
We do the greatest damage to others when we deny either one of these
truths about ourselves.
Rabbi Sharon Cohen Anisfeld is Associate Rabbi of Yale
Hillel.
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